All My Relations
While writing my book, a conclusion came into sight that brought tools, implications, and direction. One of those was what I called the 1-to-1 Relationship. It is learning to encounter…
Pivot Mental States: The Power of Worship
Worshipping Jesus isn’t nice. It’s good medicine. As I’ve learned with a lot of things, what matters in worship is the how, not so much the what. As a concept,…
Architecture of Surrender: Neurogenesis, Recovery, & the Science of Change (pt. 1)
“We should not pretend to understand the world only by the intellect; we apprehend it just as much by feeling. Therefore, the judgment of the intellect is, at best, only…
I Couldn’t Fix Myself
“God creates out of nothing. Wonderful, you say. Yes, to be sure, but He does what is still more wonderful: He makes saints out of sinners.” — Søren Kierkegaard It…
Recovery, Sweat Lodges, & Preparing for Step 4 Again
Do you believe in change? And, before you answer that, do you still pray? Recently, it’s been another Pauleene pedantic processing season. You’d think this idea that we can arrive…
Writing Docket & Drunk Pastor Update
A bit of a personal update that serves a secondary purpose of cataloguing current projects in the docket. All of these are underway, and some are on Patreon. Day Job…
Demythologizing Addiction: A Recovering Pastor’s Map Through the Wreckage
“Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I have not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance.” — Luke 5:31-32 In AA, we like…
When Salvation Needs Enemies, It Isn’t Jesus
Last week wasn’t an easy one, and there was stuff from normal life and recovery. While preparing for the Bible in Context, Genesis 2:24–25 kept coming up in life too:…
When the Ancient Path Found Me: A Year with Peruvian Shamanism
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Every Day Thanksgiving: This Is the Day the Lord Has Made
“The greatest of all illusions is to take things for granted.” — G.K. Chesterton Happy Thanksgiving! Holiday loneliness, family drama, financial burdens, and avoiding political and controversial issues at the…
