Drunk Pastor: Ramblings of a Recovering Pastor

Drunk Pastor: Musings of a recovering pastor

Faith Is Not Safe

Drunk Pastor isn’t exactly a clean, polished dialogue. That’s not how my story, nor yours, unfolded. This is for those willing to question, wrestle, and dive deeper into the Bible, faith, and life. You’ll find exegetical explorations, philosophical rabbit trails, Christian mysticism, recovery thoughts, and psychological introspections.

This site lays out a map of ancient, mystical Christianity—a model for encountering Reality directly rather than spectating through performance or compliance. It houses a library of essays and pages outlining much of the basics, each piece building on ones before it.

Take it for a test ride. Feed an article, or the whole site, into your AI of choice and see if it works. Stress-test its logical consistency, historical accuracy, exegetical integrity, and internal cohesion. Look for gaps and see if the logic holds up. If it falls apart, discard it. If it makes you ask more questions, good. If it holds weight and water, don’t just debate but try dancing with it by bringing it into your personal life.

May we all find out just how deep and wide the love of God is.

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About Drunk Pastor

My name is Paule, and I’m a former pastor in recovery who has walked through struggles with shame, mental health, addiction, and crises of faith.

Behind the pulpit, I was hiding a battle with identity and insecurity, with ego and comfort. There was a disconnect between what I preached and how I lived. After the wreckage I caused for family and church, while God and recovery kept doing their work, I kept struggling with gaps between doctrines and practice, Scripture and Science, unsure of how everything fit together.

That was then.

Drunk Pastor was an idea someone pitched in my first rehab (they have since told me they didn’t think I’d do it 😅). This aims to be a resource for those searching, to spark meaningful conversations, and to challenge some American Christendom assumptions. I didn’t realize I was deconstructing for a while, in more ways than one. On Easter of 2024, I began reconstructing.

Articles and pages here offer an authentic look at the Bible, spirituality, and humanity, sharing some notes about recovery along the way.

Intro To Christian Mysticism

RECENT RAMBLINGS

Biblical And Theological

Phōtizō: Getting Out of The Cave

Unpasteurized Paule

One of my favorite Bible stories is the Samaritan Woman at the Well in John 4. While she is unnamed, later traditions called her Photini — The Luminous One — because she was the…

8 minute read

All My Relations

Unpasteurized Paule

While writing my book, a conclusion came into sight that brought tools, implications, and direction. One of those was what I called the 1-to-1 Relationship. It is learning to encounter reality…

10 minute read

Biblical And Theological

God Reveals Mysteries In the Secret Places: Revelation & Our Inner Life

Unpasteurized Paule

“Mystery is not something you cannot understand; it is something that you can endlessly understand. There is no end to it.” — Richard Rohr The biblical tradition repeatedly moves…

15 minute read

Pivot Mental States: The Power of Worship

Unpasteurized Paule

Worshipping Jesus isn’t nice. It’s good medicine. As I’ve learned with a lot of things, what matters in worship is the how, not so much the what. As a concept, worship exists…

8 minute read

Biblical And Theological

Jacob’s Wages: The Cost of Trying Too Hard

Unpasteurized Paule

There’s a pattern in Jacob’s story, the grandson of Abraham. It’s one that chased me until it brought me to an end. “Grace is not opposed to effort, it is opposed to earning.…

9 minute read

Biblical And Theological

The Joy of Knowing Christ (Philippians 3:8-16)

Unpasteurized Paule

“The aim of spiritual formation is not behavior modification but the transformation of all those aspects of you and me where behavior comes from.” — Dallas Willard, Renovation of the…

12 minute read

Christians Can Use Tarot: A Case for Biblical Symbols & Spiritual Formation

Unpasteurized Paule

“It seems as if the set of pictures in the Tarot cards were distantly descended from the archetypes of transformation, a view that has been confirmed for me in a very illuminating lecture by…

12 minute read

Atonement With A 1000 Faces: Humanity as the Unified Theory

Unpasteurized Paule

“The current gospel then becomes a ‘gospel of sin management.’ Transformation of life and character is no part of the redemptive message.” — Dallas Willard A…

10 minute read

Biblical And Theological

Speaking Two Levels at Once: How Scripture Uses Mystery as a Tutor

Unpasteurized Paule

Scholars like Francis Schaeffer and Dallas Willard, both heavyweights, document how Western Christianity bifurcated truth into two realms. In other words, it treated the world as if there were…

9 minute read

Social And Political

The Rise of Victimhood

Unpasteurized Paule

There were a few hats to wear as a pastor, and counseling was one of them. It came naturally. I had some courses and ministry training that provided a good base and toolkit, too. Part of my…

12 minute read

Biblical And Theological

“Be Strong and Courageous” — Decoding Joshua 1:5-9 For Everyone

Unpasteurized Paule

Joshua 1:5-9 was one of the first Bible passages I memorized as a teenage Jesus Freak. It’s a challenge to be brave following the path God placed before us (Hebrews 12:1-3), implying it can be…

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