Posts by month

June 2024

7 posts
From Honesty To Heresy:REthinking What We Hold Certain
View Post
  • 9 min

From Honesty To Heresy:Rethinking What We Hold Certain

For years, I felt like a fraud, an imposter. It's something psychological like many people experience. I was a pastor, but deep down, my own beliefs were at odds with the doctrines I preached. I had a self-destructive habit of preventing myself from being fully authentic. I wasn't healthy. Leading a church terrified me. This internal conflict eventually led to a breakdown, and it took a rock bottom to force me to confront my fears and the issues within the church itself. I'm not the only one. It's amazing what a simple shift in perspective can do…eh, church?
View Post
Share
A Widow's Mites on End Times
View Post
  • 6 min

A Widow’s Two Mites on Perspective & End Times

We may be tempted to embellish the story or to assume we know how it ends. Neither Mark nor Luke lets us have the pleasure. Once Jesus talks about her, she doesn't show up again. Jesus doesn't say that her rent will be provided, will have food the next day, or that her unspoken health condition will be healed. There is no promise. A poor widow, in that time and society, gave the last coins she had and left with no answers.
View Post
Share
Jacobs Legacy - Fatherhood-Faith- and Forgiveness - Drunk Pastor
View Post
  • 7 min

Jacob’s Legacy: Fatherhood, Faith, And Forgiveness

Jacob's family has drama and issues. We can forget that these stories are about humans and that it was messy and not so cleanly scripted as we read them. Jacob was selfish and his family was a crap show. When his favorite son falls prey to the children Jacob fathered, Jacob's lifelong pursuit has born its fruit. He now swam in the wake of the mess he made.
View Post
Share
Egongelicalism - The Clash of Ego and Evangelicalism
View Post
  • 5 min

Egongelicalism #1: The Clash of Ego in Evangelicalism

The work of creating an image of myself who already exists, the work of trying to push that up and out while keeping the real me hidden and safe inside, and the work of dealing with communication breakdowns so I can filter Reality for the sake of my Ego is exhausting and unsustainable. From Genesis 1-3 through the Gospels and to Revelation, Ego is humanity’s issue. Jesus's Gospel was clearly an invitation to kill our egos and do the opposite—love.
View Post
Share
Beyond Just Don't Lie -Blank Header - Drunk Pastor
View Post
  • 7 min
Uncategorized

Beyond “Just Don’t Lie” – Authentic Acceptance & Why Mantras Matter

Now "Just don't lie" is about me not lying to myself and accepting reality as it is. It's been getting down to levels of not letting myself be distracted or hide behind convenient circumstances. It's also helped me talk about the good side, the good in reality, and me. It's not like any of us are entirely bad or even mostly. I can fixate and inflate my insecurities and ego quickly beyond what is real. The inverse is also true—I can avoid and minimize my insecurities so they disappear from notice. "Just Don't Lie" is about being as I am right now and allowing reality to be as it is.
View Post
Share