A lot has changed. A lot. My beliefs, personality, practices, habits, etc. A lot has not changed. My beliefs, personality, practices, habits, etc.What had started as a retreat to deal with insecurities became a journey back to find my actual voice and to put out into practice what I only had been working on in "here". Shame was a part of it, again. Fear of disapproval, what people might think of me as compared to who I was, their judgments of my recovery, and harder ones had to be reprocessed.